How I wish the situation would change. How I wish you could see. How I wish you could grow up.
What I Would Say to J.C.
So long we have not spoken. So many words to say. I feel betrayed in a strange way that no one can relate to in this situation. Not only because of what I’ve been through but that it came from you. You of all people. You were my strong hold when I went through this. But while it was happening you were repeating one of the most vile mistakes of your life. I know you are paying for it now. But now I know you sold out. Now I know you are trying your damnest by throwing away all you were and used to be just to win back what you already lost.
You abandoned us. You abandoned me. We still need you. I still need you. You were a rock in my life. I trusted you. You are just like the rest. Another one betrayed and left me alone and trying to grapple with the injustices of life and a misunderstanding of how people work and interact and deceive and betray because I still don’t quite understand how it came from you. You of all people.
”…we could have had such a damned good time together… isn’t it pretty to think so?” - the sun also rises
Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff
Ask yourself this question: “Will this matter a year from now?”
“I think the way people perceive you is not a reflection on who you are, but how you make them feel.”
heart broken. can’t sleep.
from a friend
I just had to deal with another domestic violence incident at the hotel I run. After pounding on the door, I was able to safely separate the couple and soon called 911. The sweet woman was shaking, sobbing and absolutely terrified. It took everything inside of me to hold myself back from beating this man to death. What turns a man into a monster like that? It’s something that I can’t relate to at all. Is it just how a man is raised as a child, or is it just the way they are born? Both?
Women are our greatest teachers and our greatest gift. They hold us accountable as a man as they effortlessly bring us to a higher consciousness with their intuitive radiance. They teach us more about the laws of life than we could possibly find in any form of solitude, meditation or book. Is there anything more healing than the presence of a beautiful and confident woman who has a total knowledge of herself? No. What is the price that they ask for in return for these many gifts they give? Their trust.
So how do we gain that trust? We, as men, have to enter into a woman’s life in the same way we should greet a new day; With strength, love and gratefulness. Women need to know that their man will protect her heart, body and her honor. HONOR HER! Any form of violence towards a woman means that the man is not comfortable with his own masculinity. A sign that he has lost his purpose in life. I’m sorry, friends. I’m sorry for this long FB vent, but I am still so angry that I am shaking. Respond however the heck you want to this post. I’m using this energy and going to the gym. I’m done.
In the end, no one is gonna hold you when you cry.
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe
I have such a void to fill.
